Blog of Josh Hall

well, back at work after a short weekend. This is the first weekend in a while that i haven’t had to do anything. No weekend shift and I didnt go home to see my sisters or do anything at the estate. It was nice. I deep cleaned the apartment on saturday and went over to a friend from work’s house for a Texas hold em tournament. First time gambler. I was only out $5, bough in the first time, lasted 5 rounds and didnt buy back in. Becky was out $10, and Kevin ended up taken the 1st place and getting 60 some bucks. Texas hold em is a bnuch of fun, i am thinking about getting some chips just to play. So that was saturday, and sunday i went out to the mall sunday. I stopped in the pet store to check out the fish, and they had a weimaraner pup there. My family has been talking about getting one after the poosh moves on. He was a cute thing, and then i noticed his birthday, same as mine. I would love to have a huge place and enough money for a dog like that. What i did end up buying was a 4 piece sectional at Kaufmann’s furniture on clearance for $750 though. i have to go get it today, i am excited. I also got a Beckett price guide to see what my dad’s baseball cards are worth. he’s got a few $500 cards, some $300 cards, and lots of $100-$150 cards. Quite a few Mickey Mantles, Willie Mays, Ted Williams, Hank Aaron, Bill Mazeroski, etc. Good to look at. his 1 binder is worth well over 3x my 5 binders. Watched the movie Before Sunset yesterday. Can you say Waking Life 2? I thought it was screaming chick flick at first, but then i saw ethan hawke and the same girl he was with in waking life were in it. Then i heard the dialogue, and i was like, whoa, this has Richard Linklater written all over it. Sure enough, popped over to www.imdb.com and it was him. You can’t watch a movie like that and turn off your mind afterwards. I had a smile on my face in wonderment for the next hour. Great movie.

So as far as things go with the estate, it’s a mess. I took some pictures of it as well as some of the cannon. I should warn you that the house is in TERRIBLE condition, the house used to be so cool when it was built in 1885, there is a pic from then in the link. and the cannon is from world war II. There are a bunch of cool pics of it and the park at my grandma’s. I want to scan them all.

So i got work that is going pretty well, school with 1 class meeting 3 more times between now and april, estate stuff that i’m letting J’aime stress herself out over but shouldn’t, gotta find another roommate since emily is trying to go to paris, and on top of all that, i bought a coat hangar thing at target that fits over a door, and the door doesn’t shut with it on it! WHAT THE FRIGGIN CRAP! i tried it on different doors, and it’s too thick to allow the door to shut. What is that about??? Am i wrong in assuming that doors should still be able to close? I swear, sometimes, it’s just me. Nothing just works. There is always an ordeal.

one thing i didn’t do was record this weekend. So that brings me to 1 absolutely finished song, 1 pretty finished song, and 3 songs recorded without lyrics written. My new years resolution was a song a week, or atleast 2 songs a month, with a CD out by end of summer. Lyrics are what are holding me up now. I’ve been in the mood to write a novel or two recently too, but i gotta go with the songs first i think. If i don’t do it, no one else will. 😉

I’m not sure if i should post just any dream i remember, or just the ones that are weird. What do you think? This next one, i woke up remembering the end part, and was just going to post that, but then i remembered all that happenned before it that wasn’t related, so i wasn’t sure to post that or not. I guess i just write it at the end. Things to note, i went to bed at 4:30 pm, woke up at 8:30 pm for a minute or two, and had not dreamed any of this, and by 10:30 i woke up for good and remembered this.

So i am at my dad’s house, and by this time, i am aware that i am dreaming, but instead of being active and in control of my dream like i usually am, i believe myself to be invisible. It’s a summer day, and all my sisters are just chilling out in the grass sitting around and talking. I slowly sneak up to them and try and hear their conversation. While Serah is talking, Ja’ime starts to look at me. I have the feeling like in past dreams she had done the same thing, like i really am not invisible. I ignore it once or twice, but then she does it again, and i tackle here and start to tickle her sides like there is no tomorrow. She starts freaking out like i would expect her to, and everyone else sits there watching her, and then i see Serah give a look like “what do i do now???” and look off into the woods, as if some “director” is there and will give her directions. So i busted her on that move and then they all start talking to me, like “yeah, you weren’t invisible and you weren’t dreaming and we weren’t supposed to let you know that.” Like a whole Jim Carrey and Truman Show thing. Then my dad drive up in his dump truck into the yard and gets out and start heading for the house like he is mad. So i was looking at my sisters and said something along the lines of “so he was in on it too huh? I am so mad at him” Then I said, “but maybe he was just doing his job, so do i hate him, the actor actor in my life, or do i hate his character.” But anyway, it starts to get dark and stormy, and we all have this sense of urgency to seek refuge in the house. At this point, my uncle kenny shows up and heads for the house as well as my grandma. As we are making our way into the house, i hear TONS of crazy animal noises coming from the woods. I am talking lions, ELEPHANTS, howls, growls, all that, and i am thinking they are all coming to stampede the house. We get into the house, and i walk to the front door of the house and J’aime is letting Dante in from the porch, but a black police officer is there, and he drove his car right up to the porch and was talking to us to make sure everyone got in safe. And then i woke up. The part of the dream that happenned before this is in the extended text. So back to the beginning of what i remember. One of the most popular themes of my dreams is that i am back in highschool, trying to finish school for some reason, but i am still the same person as i am today. As if i just left school and never finished. So this is where i am at, in a classroom, and Will Smith is my teacher. We are in a classroom that was at my 2nd school, Heritage Hills Christian Academy. (3rd floor, across from Mrs. Sarber’s small room for the details) anyway, he’s about to start class and he asks me how i am doing, and i say fine. My girlfriend Becky is sitting next to me, and he asks me about the legal case going on. I am then reminded of a dream i hate earlier, where a friends girlfriend was suing me for some reason. I gave a look of shock that he asked me that and just tried to dodge the question, i think he got the hint and said that he was a little confused but he would just talk to me later. Then the dreams gets spotty and i kinda remember Samuel L Jackson being my teacher for something, and having a study hall with someone else, but i would skip it to go talk to him about my life and get his advice. Whe he was there, the setting was my first school, Bentleyville Wesleyan Christian School. The next thing i remember, i am at the cannon by my dad’s house, and someone starts playing the bass part to what i believe to be a Police song. I wish i could remember the song, or even exactly how it went, I know if someone played it for me right now, i would be able to pick it out. But anyway, he’s behind the barn playing guitar, and i walk near him and he starts playing some other leads to songs that i recognized. When he is done, he puts down the guitar, and walks back to the group of 4 or 5 of his 20 something friends who were watching him play. Then, one of them comes over to me, and about 6 other people that were watching him. And he starts saying that what his friend just did took courage, to stand up there and play infront of everyone, and he said 2 points for him for being able to do that, and to be bold enough to do what he wanted to do in his life. He said that is what we all needed to learn to do, to live in the moment. He came up to me and said to everyone, I am just going to put out my cigarette on this guy’s neck (which he did) because i don’t know him and i feel like doing it. Now, if he was smart, one day he will grow up and remember that and kill me. Then i started to strangle him, squeezing the life out of his neck, and he was proud of me for killing him, because he saw me doing what i wanted to do. He didn’t put up much of a fight. Then i start walking closer to the house and that is where i started to realize i was dreaming and continued with the rest of the dream.

I think this dream reveals my deep paranoia and dementia. Agree?

so we have ancestry.com and classmates.com, but i think that the government should fund a centralized database for all that, and everything in between. like i would go in and put in where i went to school, church, where i lived, people’s names that i remember from all those places, etc. and if enough people did this, i am sure there would be lots of crossed paths. maybe someone i went to kindergarten with lives right down the street from me. you could add events to it too, everyone in attendance at the olympics or superbowl, and you could trace any relations you have to anyone, or how many times you crossed paths with someone. maybe a better name for the site would be called it’s-a-small-world-afterall.com it could be a historical reference for buildings, family trees, finding lost friends, or even tracking down people that owe you money. you could search the people database for friends, relatives, neighbors, classmates, etc. just a huge database of everyone, everywhere, everytime, every place, and everything. i like it.

if a girl was in love with a guy, and she got a sex change, and they ended up dating, would they be a gay couple?

same thing with a guy getting a sex change and dating a woman, lesbians?

what about a gay couple, one gets a sex change, can they then get married legally in most states?

and why are gay females called lesbians but gay men are just called gay? i feel like we need a new term. why do women get a new word?

I used to have a dreams section in the forums, but i got rid of it. so welcome the first story of my dreams topics.

Had a dream last night, that was really like me watching a movie. it was called the third floor. it starred kevin costner. it started out with these 5 second clips of college scenes with classical music as the only sound. some of the clips were like a graduation, some frat guys fighting, just people walking, it was just like the openning segment when you would see credits and stuff run. anyway, the last one was of this college kid laying on his back taking a nap in the grass. the camera was right above him, and continued to let him drop out of the picture as it moved slowly past his head. I believed kevin costner to be that boy, and that we were following his dream. then kevin costner does the voice over. there is this maybe 50 square yard green grass area, and right in the middle is this white house. Kevin runs to the house, in the french doors on the side, out the door on the next side. lots of big windows on the first floor The house isn’t that big, maybe 20×40 feet. it has nice hardwood floors. There are no dividing walls, just wide open space, no basement, just a staircase in the far end. he says that he loves this house because of how open it is, just like the old country houses used to be, they let people come in and out as they please. (continued). so he’s very exited about the house, he walks to the other end of the house, and he starts going up the hard wood staircase to the second floor. there’s a bedroom here, no door from the stairs, just an open landing with a wide door frame.. then he starts continuing around the stair case to make is way up to the third floor. the star case has about 10 stairs per flight. from the 1st floor, it goes up 1 flight, big landing and the bedroom, another flight off that, just a small square landing, then about 3 or 4 steps to the left, another small landing, and another 10 steps to the 3rd floor. From that landing, you can see that the entry is just like the 2nd story bedroom, but you can’t see into the room. he gets to the second small landing, and as soon as he starts to make his way on the last flight, the house begins to shake. the ground trembles, and he starts to back off. he goes back to the 1st small landing and it stops. he’s petrified. he tries to go back up, and he just hears the ground rumbling. the movie goes on with him having people over, and not letting anyone go up to the third floor. there are no windows to the outside from the 2nd or 3rd floors. the next part i remember, it was raining and dark outside, and he is angry, he gets a large triangle forming metal ladder and sits it right in the middle of the staircase. as he climbs up it, he can start to see a large bed, with white sheets in the third story room. as he gets to the top, he sees someone is sleeping in it. the next part if pretty freaky because all this screaming is going on and it’s just really intense somehow, and he grabs the blanket and screams “wake up!” as he pulls it away and reveals a young girl with long black hair sleeping in pajamas. Then, i wake up.

bleh, working the weekend shift can get tiresome. just an hour left to go though. so since last i posted, not too much new has gone on i think. did a lot of site work on this main site and in the dragon games. put up the arcade with all kinds of retro games we all love. I’ll add tons more games as i get to it. Updated the version of phpnuke with lots of security features to stop those crazy Brazilians. some other crap too. As far as the dragon game goes, i am trying to get some of my code included into the core distribution. I have to contact aol, msn, and yahoo for permission to use their images though, and that is turning out to be a hassle. Thinking about just coming up with another idea to try to get into the distro. I’ve already got my name on source forge with the globetrotter module, but i’d really be happy to be part of the distro, since i spend so much of my time working on it anyway. It would be a good accomplishment.

I set up a Hosting module here too. those packages that are listed are just guidelines. I will match anything you can find anywhere else, even beat it. I just want some business. PLEASE PLEASE, I BEG OF YOU! LET ME HOST YOU! just email me or use the hosting form.

well, that’s all the geekery. As for what’s really going on in Josh’s head, i am not so sure i am ready to spill. still alot going on in my personal life and it’s just a lot to sort through. I’ve got a positive attitude and i have been feeling very motivated as of late. i’m trying to find <—continued—>
a “slam man” to buy on ebay or walmart. it’s the punching buy that lights up where you are supposed to hit him. I hear boxing is one of the best ways to get in shaped muscle wise and shape wise. plus it should be fun. keep your eyes out for me.

I also signed back up for a class this semester. organizational communication, meets 4 Saturdays during the semester. hopefully i will be able to get through it just fine.

I gave up on the London idea for now. just not the right timing. too much going on, and plus i really like my job now. Can’t really say that too loud, my boss reads this stupid site sometimes. 🙂