Personal Update

here i am, but i’ve never felt more lost

17 October, 2005 (15:05) | Personal Update

october. It went from 70 degree weather to 50 in the matter of a day or two. i’m not happy. effing october.

Went down to annapolis this weekend with my sisters to hang out with serah. it was a good time. we didnt really do all that much, but it was nice to hang out. it’s actually one of the rare moments when it is just us siblings, no mom, no significant others.

I’ve been so overwhelmed with school the past few weeks. statistics having homework due twice a week, a test, and another test this friday. but, it’s over after that. I had a test in my communication last monday, and it sucked. i guess starting next week, i am going to have the monday night class, and then a tuesday night class. whose bright idea was that? effing A. I was thinking about going somewhere for my birthday, i took off the whole week from work, but with those classes, it makes it pointless. I think i might just keep saving up my money and get stuff down around the apartment that week.

this wednesday is a mike doughty concert. Don’t know who i am going with yet, but hopefully i will be able to find someone.

another thing that is starting to take precedence over other items is estate business. it’s a race against the weather to try and get the roof fixed by winter, and we don’t have any money to work with. it’s drama central. trying to set up deems’ park as a business too, hoping that will be beneficial to our situation. I am trying to meet with some small business volunteers this thursday to go over all of our options.

nothing else is new with me. life goes by faster than i can enjoy it.

Thoughts & Ideas

high class wannabes

12 October, 2005 (15:05) | Thoughts & Ideas

This was actually an idea I hate a while back, but i’m just reminded of it now, with the scottish island. I think a website, for people to get together on joint ventures would be useful. like, a bunch of middle class people want to buy an island, someone posts the idea on the site, gets some people interested, they each give their share to the website, who acts like 3rd party, and the site would see to it that eveyone is included in the lease or what have you. it could be used on special occassions, like people who want to rent a hummer limousine for valentines day, but can’t afford it on their own. or people who want to try a glass of cristal. I dunno, i think there are applications for it, and the site would just be like a trustworthy friend to make sure everyone pays their share and no one runs off with the money. administratedpurchases.com? helpusbuyit.com?

Ramblings

anagrams

10 October, 2005 (15:05) | Ramblings

So mike doughty’s latest album is called “Haughty Melodic.” seems like a phrase typical of mike. I am just now coming to realize that “Haughty Melodic” is an anagram for “Michael Doughty.” Pretty cool. So i went to find out what other anagrams i could make from people’s names, here. There’s nothing cool for my name, but, turns out “Almighty Douche” is the only other anagram for michael doughty, with words made of 5 letters or more. That’s pretty darn funny. That’s enough for me not to name my album “haughty melodic.” No need to draw attention to the anagrams after that.
http://www.wordsmith.org/anagram/advanced.html serah jo hall = hear all josh

News

Presidents of the united states of america BACK!

27 September, 2005 (15:05) | News

WOw! first the cardigans, now P.U.S.A.! looks like they have been rocking out this year in California and now in Australia. awesome! I emailed Chris Ballew around February this year, telling him I loved hearing his songs on commercials and for that shortlived tv program on abc with andy ricter and the quintuplets. anyway, rock on Chris and company! The official Pusa website.

Ramblings

high speed ambulances

24 September, 2005 (15:05) | Ramblings

So i am coming home on a 2 lane highway, going about 65 mph, and there is an ambulance in the right hand lane. It has all those crazy lights it has going wild, which is enhanced by it being 10:30 at night. So i am slowly approaching it, and i am hit with this sense of not knowing how to act to its presence. am i allowed to pass it? do i just get behind it? if i do pass it, am i allowed to get in the right hand lane infront of it? I am quickly approaching it, and everyone else that was infront of me passed it, so i did. at one point, i could see in the back windows, and i saw an EMT girl turning around getting something from the wall cabinet and turn back around to what i can guess is someone on a stretcher. I forget at what point, but some where between 10 feet behind and 10 feet infront of it, it gives out a loud “whoop” once. Why? was it trying to tell us it wants over? there are about 4 cars immediately infront of me. With all those lights going, it’s kind of hard to notice a turn signal. What does it want? What can i do to help this ambulance get to its destination? I felt dirty passing it. And really, if i can pass it, and it has someone in the back, why can’t they go faster? why have its lights on at all? or, if it is an emergency, why not it’s sirens too?

granted i never read my driver study book before i got my permit, so maybe i missed something, but dang, what a weird thing.

Personal Update

wake me up when september comes

20 September, 2005 (15:05) | Personal Update

Threw up last night at 2am. Havent thrown up since i was like 12. so i stayed home from work today. Dunno what’s going on with my body. It might be the weight loss thing. this morning i woke up and weighed myself, and i was 192. at the beginning of the year, i was around 210. It’s been a lot of running and working out, but also a lot of diet changes. to be honest though, i havent been to the gym for 2 weeks or something, and i’m still losing weight. maybe i have worms. i just seem to be on a downward spirl now.

I can’t seem to turn off my head for the past few days. Been thinking about love and life and the future and the past. I watched another richard linklater movie, before sunrise. I feel so stupid for not knowing about it until recently. It was made in 95, and sets up the story for before sunset, another great movie. i dont think i should be allowed to watch movies like that alone though. I have so much i want to talk about after watching them, and no one to talk to, so i just go insane inside my own head until i pass out.

school sucks.

my manager went down to new orleans since he’s in the national guard. i have no idea when he will be back. things are worsening at work. I just want my bachelors. i just want my bachelors. i just want my bachelors.

the house doesnt have the northwood realty sign in the yard anymore. that might be a sign of it coming up for foreclosure soon. or it might not.

i’ve got a lot on my mind.