Blog of Josh Hall

mother effer. i am so mad right now. since i am only taking 1 class this semester, i have to start paying back school loans. i’ve got a total of 16k in loans. and they are all over the place. i’m trying to consolidate them, but that takes months for everything to go through. so i am stuck sending checks to places i dont even know are legit, paying ungodly interest rates for effing what? the ability to say i wasted my life away at pitt for the past 3 years? it drives me insane to see the “minimum ammount owed” is $20, so i make a $100 payment, and when i get next month’s statement, i see that $34 of that 100 went to just paying the interest!!!! WTF i hate this world.
colleges are in the business of education. you pay them for their product and then you leave thinking you overpaid. there are so many hoops to jump through. you have to fill out forms upon forms for loans, grants, tuition, financial aid, everything. for the billions that colleges make, they should have people on staff that do this crap for you. i feel like i am running around like a chicken with its head cut off when i am doing this crap. it’s like taxes, only you know you’re not getting anything back. i have no idea how social security is at risk when i am paying $34 on interest a month. just charge people interest on social security. MOTHER EFFER I HATE THIS. I want to stick a cathedral of learning figure up my rectum and post pictures of it EVERYWHERE with the caption “worst lay i have ever had, and i paid 16k for it”

kids should be focussing on going to school, not figuring out how they are going to pay for it. if i ever have kids, i am going to tell them to make sure they want to go to college. once they are, i am going to pay for it, even if its under the agreement that they will pay me back later on…WITHOUT EFFING INTEREST! wtf. if i had a gun right now, i would find out who these creditors are, and shoot all of them. they are robbing me. i mean, the perfect example of the rich stealing from the poor.

and what bugs me the most, is i have no options to pay for it. most of these places don’t even 800 numbers to call to speak to someone. i cant make over the phone payments, cant make online payments. so if a payment is due in 2 days, i have already lost because i cant send it through the mail in time. welcome to the 1900s. And why the $%^#% can’t i pay with a credit card???? i want to atleast get reward points out of the deal, you know?!?!? EFF YOU SEE KAY. i got no other options then to play these government games of hide and seek and run through the maze like a lab rat. i hate it. i hate the government. i hate taxes, i hate college, i hate money, i hate interest, i hate corporations, i hate CEOs in their yachts and 5 million dollar houses with their gas guzzling SUVs. eff equality.

Coming into this month, I find myself in a few similar situations that i was in this time last year. I’m not in the depressing funk that i was in last year, i am a little more optimistic this time around. I am going with the mentality that this is my second chance to get it right. I was looking through the archive last year for personal updates, what a sad person i was.

Today i am going to go look at headstones for my brother and father. you may be asking yourself, “ummmm, didn’t your brother die back in 1990??” and the answer would be yes. I want to say that my father failed to honor my brother with a headstone for all that time, despite many interventions by many people about the issue, but I think the blame is about 90% his, because none of us took any measures besides talking to my dad about. After i got my job last october, i started to get my sisters involved in getting one, and almost did a few times, but those attempts stopped after my dad went into the hospital.

I’ve decided that i want to go more places on the weekends. I have plans to go out to philly to see mike doughty, to hang out with my cousin nate, to spend time with Mike pesce (serah’s “friend”), plans to go down to DC to hang out with serah, i want to go down to willamsburg, va to go to busch gardens, i want to go down to charlotte, NC to see my aunt/uncle and cousin, i want to go up to erie to hang with my uncle, record a little bit, and maybe see my grandma if she decides to move up there.

I don’t think i have mentioned that when my cousin moves out at the end of the month, Jordan Owen, a friend from highschool is going to be moving in. He works from 3-11pm as of right now, so we’ll never see eachother since i work 4am-noon, which may be a good thing. We’ll both have the apartment to ourselves when we are here, and on the times we are here together, we should be able to get along far better than what was witnessed before emily moved in. so i am excited for that to happen.

And despite my sincere wishes that it was all a big april fool’s prank, Mitch Hedberg did die this week. I am honored to have seen him live with my cousin a few years back. In my mind, his genius was the best type of genius there is. Stuff that makes you laugh, think, and question why things are the way they are. He was the best.

It’d be cool to be married to an April, and be considered a fool. Then you’d get your own holiday.

had an interesting dream last night. I was at a doctors office with 2 friends, and the three of us were having a conversation with the doctor. somewhere in the conversation, the doctor tried to make a joke, and then punchline was, “you know what they say about the a doctor’s wife.” the three of us looked at eachother confused, and said that we didnt know what they said about doctor’s wives. the doctor (who was female) acted surprised we didnt didn’t get it. She said, “You know, their names.” We were clues less. She kind of laughed, and said she wasn’t going to tell us, and she was going to make us figure it out. She handed us a bunch childrens book and said to read through them to find out the name of a doctor’s wife. So we started to look through them, looking for a girl name that would make some sort of sense. One of my friends said to atleast tell us what letter the name started with. The doctor said Z. So we started looking through these childrens books for girl names that start with Z. After a short time, i left my 2 friends and went somewhere else, still trying to think of a girl’s name that starts with Z. Shortly after i came to the other place, I got the answer. It was either Zacheus’ wife or Zachariah’s wife. I think the joke was trying to say that wives of doctors are usually known by their husbands accomplishments.

I just thought it was so strange that i gave myself a riddle in my dream. now that i think about it, i guess zachariah or zacheus hold no relevance, so it is a stupid riddle that only i would have gotten anyway. eh. And incase anyone noticed the lack of details that are usually present in my dreams, there were plenty of them. They were all a little too personal, irrelevant, or weird to put in.